Circle It

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I have to admit that most days I go to bed feeling like I have failed again at so many things that day. Most of that comes from parenting. I suck at parenting! That’s the best way I know to say it.  I realize that that’s a pretty strong word to use, but it’s definitely how I feel probably six out of the seven days of the week!

No one tells you what parenting looks, sounds, or feels like. These kids can rip my heart out, melt it, and fill it up with so much joy that I don’t know how my chest can withstand all the changes. No one tells you that parenting looks and feels like you have been run over by a truck most days and that silence doesn’t exist anymore.

Actually, I’m pretty positive that I will never have this whole parenting thing figured out. They grow so quick and go through so many changes that each stage of their life brings on all new challenges.

So, since I’ve read books before and after they were born about the first years and first milestones that I figured I would try and find something to give me some comfort to know that I’m not alone in this crazy roller coaster of a ride. My ultimate destination for this ride is to have raised children who love God with all their heart, depend on him for everything, and live a life that spills out His love to others.

In my search for a book that would teach me how to be a better parent I found one that speaks to what I know I can do… PRAY! I love to pray. However, recently my prayers have seemed to be few and without much passion. (This parenting gig takes a lot out of me!)

In the book, The Circle Maker by Mark Batterson, he talks about drawing a circle around God’s word and praying boldly for things that He has already promised us. All we need to do is be willing to ask Him to give us the desires His heart. This book will honestly change the way that you pray.

After finishing that book I found another book he wrote titled Praying Circles Around Your Children.  Even though I am still reading the latter one, I have to encourage those of you who are willing to make a difference in your parenting.

I am never going to be the best parent or have all the answers, but we do have our Heavenly father. He is our perfect example of a parent and has all the answers we will ever need. Praying is all that we can truly do to make a difference in our children’s lives and more importantly our lives.

So, as I make my way to my final destination I plan on drawing many circles and praying for my children in ways that could change their lives even after I’m long gone.

Keep on asking, and you will receive what you ask for. Keep on seeking, and you will find. Keep on knocking, and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks, receives. Everyone who seeks, finds. And to everyone who knocks, the door will be opened.

You parents- if your children ask for a loaf of bread, do you give them a stone instead? Or if they ask for a fish, do you give them a snake? Of course not! So if you sinful people know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your heavenly Father give good gifts to those who ask him.

Mathew 7:7-11 NIV

…The earnest prayer of a righteous person has great power and produces wonderful results. James 5:16b NIV

And we are confident that he hears us whenever we ask for anything that pleases him. 1 John 5:14 NIV